Healing My Own Childhood Trauma - Part 1/2

Here is part 1 of 2 of recently healing my own childhood trauma. (Part 2 continued next week).

I've been away for 3 months taking care of my 78 yr old father who was traveling solo in Mexico in February and hospitalized.

An issue with his Prostate and Diabetes had him passed out and found on the streets of Puerto Vallarta and taken to a hospital. A nurse contacted me through Facebook after finding my contact info in his wallet. 

My father is schizophrenic, parents divorced when I was six, so under four decades later I’ve really only just spent a handful of times with him throughout the years.


— Hospital in Mexico / Quick visit to the ocean

Being his only child and estranged from his family for decades, I was the only contact he had in his wallet. I knew he didn’t have anyone else, so I rushed down to Mexico to find him in a stable yet disoriented state in a local hospital. 

He was a shadow of what I remembered. Slower to speak, having suffered numerous small strokes throughout the years. Traveling with just one backpack with all his belongings covered in his own urine.  He seldom was able to manage his prostate or medications. Not thinking any of that was an issue, he just laughed and said it was his last adventure. 

We rushed back to NYC where I figured I needed time to research a new living situation for him. I didn’t feel it was safe for him to live on his own anymore and I knew he didn’t live well being on welfare since I was a child. From what I remembered he lived in a drug-laden area of Vancouver’s East Hastings Street.


— Hospital in New York

I began researching assisted nursing care in Canada when we got back to New York and then as our luck would have it he caught Pneumonia... After 3 days in a New York hospital ( and $45k later) I rushed him back to Vancouver where I knew he had Canadian health care. 

In fours weeks I scoured Vancouver to find him an assisted living nursing care home, cleaned out his old, urine stained, cockroach, and bed bug infested apartment wearing a full body protective suit, found his lost citizenship, applied for a new passport (old one had a faded picture from the urine stains), arranged POA over all his government and banking affairs, got him settled into his new nursing care home and taught him how to put socks on, use his new four-wheeled walker, and change his maximum absorbency Depend underwear. A crash course in parenting for this childless adult.

This journey has allowed me to make peace with my father, unearthing deep childhood emotional trauma and anger from having a schizophrenic father who was not capable of taking care of me as a child.

I've come full circle and awakened to repeated emotional patterns in my life that all stem from our relationship.

>>> To be continued... Stay tuned next week to learn how I cathartically broke through my own deep emotional childhood trauma.

Finding a way through traumatic life challenges can be overwhelming and paralyzing.

Sometimes all we can do is witness and observe the weight of it all in order to neutralize our state and take us out of panic. Then one mindful action at a time, find the momentum and mindfulness in the present moment to lighten our heart task by task, day by day.

I have learned so much from this process with my father. We all have negative patterns and emotional blockages to break free from. 

Just like my clients, when you work to uncover and release your negative patterns, increase your intuition and emotional resilience, you can move into freedom — one connected feeling, to one inspired thought, to one mindful action at a time. 

When you are exhausted from feeling like the weight of your obstacles are dragging you deeper, and you wish to finally step out of the negative patterns that have been holding you back from a life of purpose, success, and flow...

...book your FREE 1-hour phone consultation with me here:  https://meetme.so/PhilipAttar

We will review where you have been, where you want to go, and how you can obtain true freedom from the weight of your past and create the life you desire TODAY. 

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